Hope Springs As Winter Fades

Hope Springs As Winter Fades

April is the cruellest month, breeding

Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing

Memory and desire, stirring

Dull roots with spring rain,

Winter kept us warm, covering

Earth in forgetful snow, feeding

A little life with dried tubers…
–TS Eiliot

If it was a hard winter, can spring be far behind? Surely, like the ‘Four Seasons’ of Vivaldi, it seems to be eagerly waiting at the next bylane, not lurking in the shadows, but hiding within the leaves and petals of old trees, smelling of bark soaked with dew and a narrow street full of little shops selling cotton saris and cotton nostalgia. The cold, frozen, mournful sound of the violin, moving inside the inner rooms of the unconscious, looking for warmth, will now give way to the vivacious, flowing, youthful, rippling music of the change of seasons, like the sun playing with the shimmering blue of the simmering waters of a naughty, unruly, mountain spring.

Life is not elsewhere, unlike what Milan Kundera wrote. Life is here and now, at this moment, living out its daily drudgery with its dogmatic demands, and, yet, looking for that sheer moment of liberation which shall soak the deepest core of the inner self, the hidden core, that raw, pure core, which the world cannot see, and which the world shall never see, as Jorge Luis Borges wrote in his famous: ‘Two English Poems’.

I can only offer you desolate and solitary streets, empty spaces, unknown destinations, he wrote, something which only his camouflaged core would know, and which has been preserved for the most precious friendships only. Spring brings back the two English poems because life is not elsewhere, and, because, as Pablo Neruda wrote, I live suddenly; at other times, I follow.

The zigzag, bubbly, lovely, happy-go-lucky mountain river, like a shining, silver, short story, in sharp sunshine, not knowing its destiny, celebrating the journey itself as the destination. Like that immortal Rafi song in ‘Hum Dono’, an anti-war film: Main zindagi ka saath nibhata chala gaya… har fikr ko dhuen mein uraata chala gaya…

The smile of an unknown man or woman, wrote Albert Camus, in an unknown town with pebbled streets, could make his day. He would carry that smile all day long inside him, and not even a grey twilight zone, smelling of whiskey, sadness and departures, could take away the beauty of that unknown smile.

It is like walking with deep attachment and exile at the same time. Like a stoic doctor walking with his medical bag, willfully choosing to remain steadfast in the city of Oran, where the people are trapped by a deathly epidemic, a rat-trap caused by rats.  As in the great book by Camus, The Plague, located in the backdrop of World War II, and under the diabolic and sinister shadow of fascism in Europe, the impending death spectacles of the holocaust and mass murder of millions of Jews in the Nazi concentration camps run by Adolf Hitler, Eichmann, Goebbels, Goering and his buddies.

It is also located in the deathly realism of an epidemic, hence, the signs in our contemporary realm, especially in India, seem stunningly similar. There is evil stalking the air. There is the bad smell of bad faith in the air. There are frauds and scum-bags ruling the roost. There are one thousand lies, repeated again and again, thereby turning them into the ‘manufactured consent’ of truth.

The dark memories of the past remain etched, in the newspapers, documents, fact-finding reports, testimonies, books, documentary films, graveyards and homes. In old photographs, half-burnt in the carnivorous fires. You suppress and censor them, they come back, as if through a divine intervention. There are tears inside photo albums, there are black holes in the heart.

Like wars. Like the 20 million or more, mothers, young daughters, sons in the Red Army, who died in Soviet Russia defending their homeland; and, finally, defeating the fascists, trapped in the snow. Like in Ukraine now, Russian soldiers, Ukrainian civilians and soldiers, all the dead, young and old, families mourning, sleepless, millions turned refugees, children orphaned, separated from their mothers.

And these were the soldiers, across the border, whose ancestors fought together, hand-in-hand, against the might of Hitler’s murderous army, and whose memories are still soaked with such infinite sacrifice, comradeship and bravery! How much more cruelty and suffering can human civilizations celebrate and inflict upon itself? Who would win and lose in the final instance of such mindless devastation?

Wrote Svetlana Alexievich, who lived across all the borders in the pre-and-after era of the Soviet Union, in that heart-breaking collection of intimate, invisible stories, ‘The Unwomanly Face of War’: “And, finally – Victory… If life for them used to be divided into peace and war, now it was into War and Victory. Again, two different worlds, two different lives. After learning to hate, they now had to learn to love again. To recall forgotten feelings. Forgotten words. The person shaped by war had to be shaped by something that was not war.”

Meanwhile, The Telegraph from Kolkata reported a story of love in the time of the earthquake, with 40,000 dead in Turkey and Syria. When Amina Khatoon saw the news of a Turkish woman and her children stuck under the rubble, the Rohingya refugee in Delhi did not think twice before selling her last piece of jewellery to buy relief material for donation.

“The contribution is bound to pinch Amina, 56, and her family, who fled Myanmar 18 years ago, more than most of the donors at the Turkish embassy here. Their hut in a slum on the banks of the Yamuna was lost to a fire in 2018. She bought a pair of gold bangles with four years’ savings in 2021, as insurance for a calamity. The same year she had to sell one of them for a surgery she needed.”

She said: “This is a big calamity. Had I been back home in Myanmar, we would have sold some of our land and donated. I feel good that I am able to do something because I had this bangle. We have faced what people there are facing after the earthquake — to be without a home and support,” Amina told The Telegraph in Rohingya and halting Hindi, with her son, Hussain, translating.

“With ₹65,000 from the sale of the bangle, and some more money from their savings, Amina’s family bought cookies, jackets, milk powder, women’s clothes and blankets; filled two taxis with it and drove to the embassy from their slum in Zakir Nagar.”

Indeed, among thousands of similar stories from the ravaged landscape, when four little kids were finally taken out of the rubble in Syria, you should have seen the sublime smile on the face of the woman in the rescue team who first took the kid in her arms. The crowd roared in collective joy, as if a goal has been scored in a tense football match.

 That is why, after a hard winter and cold wave, and the warmth of the ‘rajai’ smelling of naphthalene in old trunks, mixing with the faint fragrance of forgotten petals and leaves in forgotten books, life must now give way to the rippling river in Spring sunshine. Let the new season resurrect compassion, hope and resilience, amidst despair, doom and death. Let its restless freshness spread its wings, and destroy the bad smell in the air — and the evil stalking the land and the landscape.

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Rohingya Muslim

‘Why Can’t India Show Some Heart To Rohingyas Too?’

Mohammad Haroon, 50, a Rohingya from Myanmar, says he is grateful to have found shelter and safety in Okhla, New Delhi some five years back. However, he is worried about “new laws” that seek to leave them homeless once again.

Nobody wants to leave his or her ancestral land unless there are severe compulsions. Rohingya Muslims are no exception. We fled our motherland about five years back. The military-led government of Myanmar was trying to kill us all, charging the entire Rohingya community with involvement in terrorist activities. Village after villages were burnt down, our people were chased away or taken to custody and tortured.

Many of our people were killed in cold blood and labeled as terrorist without any trial. The country’s regime did not want us. There was state-sponsored ethnic cleansing happening in Rohingya-dominated Rakhine. We were left with no other choice than to pack our belongings on a dreaded night and leave before the military could knock on our doors.

Some of us managed to cross the border first to Bangladesh and from there to India. Doing odd jobs, my family made our journey to Delhi for better means of living. But of late, for several months, we hear the talks about throwing out infiltrators, illegal migrants from India. Do Indians not have the heart to show some sympathy for a persecuted community? I want to ask all Indians from your platform: Why can’t we live here?

Most of the Rohingyas living in India are working in garbage disposal sector. Most of us are in the business of collecting garbage and segregating them for bigger contractors. We are helping this country keep clean. There is no harm if we continue with our business.

Children of Haroon family outside their dwelling at Okhla in New Delhi

We earn just enough to feed ourselves. We are poor. Our kids don’t have proper clothing for winters. We have actually never faced such winters before we came to Delhi.

The winters in Myanmar are mild and, often, pleasant. Not as harsh as here in Delhi. Since we do not live in pucca houses, the wind at night makes it worse. But home is where safety is, where acceptance is.

Many media persons come here to interview us. We show them the condition of our houses. They are all made of bamboos and polythene. We live in conditions very similar to the Hindu refugees who came from Pakistan. But now, with passing of the new law, they will be accepted as citizens, while we will continue to be refugees.

We have been repeatedly requesting the Indian government to give us citizenship, considering us as refugees. We do not want to live in fear, that’s all. We just want to live our lives peacefully and don’t want our children to face what we have faced in Myanmar. 

We worry for our children. Thanks to the diverse culture of this country, we are not seen as outsiders mostly. Yes, we do face several hardships because we do not have any identification documents. But we are grateful to this nation as we are at least alive here. Even if our children become rag-pickers, they will at least be alive here in India.